Breaking Slowly

12 Years I have been bullied,
In those I gained my scars.
I can't let anyone in,
Through these iron bars.

I can't love again,
The pain always comes.
But then someone breaks the bars,
To darkness I succumb.

If only I could run,
And never look back.
There'd never be a past,
And there'd never be attack.

I just wash it aside,
Pretending I don't feel misplaced.
It's never gonna change,
It all out of place.

So here I go again,
Breaking the promise I made.
I can't help it when I'm pushed,
My skin needs the blade.

If only I could run,
Never looking back.
Never moving forward,
Remembering attack.

Red is the blood,
Purple is the bruise.
Blue is my emotion,
Black is my muse.

Heartless and soulless,
I have to fight.
And the love I bear for him,
Will make it alright.