Losing Sleep

I'd lay my pride on the line
But that's a hypocrite's lie.
I'm not a hero, I know,
When I watch the limelight glow.

When I finally try to get ahead
I lose again and should have stayed in bed.

I'm losing sleep with worries of the world
At the same time I'm fighting for myself.
And I can't change anything,
It all makes me want to scream.
At times like this I just want to give up
But the hope in me won't settle for that.
I look for reasons to sing,
But I'm still here losing sleep.

Something inside me keeps on
My mind races until dawn.
I can change something, I think,
But I cannot find the link.

When I finally try to get ahead
I lose again and should have stayed in bed.

I'm losing sleep with worries of the world
At the same time I'm fighting for myself
And I can't change anything,
It all makes me want to scream.
At times like this I just want to give up
But the hope in me won't settle for that
I look for reasons to sing,
But I'm still here losing sleep.

I feel like my blood is poisoned,
My heartbeat is longing for something else.
My words are stained with bloody hope
As I fight the optimist in myself.