The Things I Left Unsaid

Are you going to look for me
When I have gone away?
When I go hiding in the woods
For one thousand days
To clear my head?
There were things left unsaid, but little do you know I'm better off dead
Instead,
I say the same line
I say I'm doing just fine
I used to think I set a fire in your eyes
But I've come to realize
That was just the reflection of the one you set in mine
There's only so much I can take
You can bend me so much until I will break
My mistake
Our love was fake
I can't shake the feeling but now I'm awake and my heart aches.
I was blind but now I see
You weren't the person you claimed to be
I can hear you whisper
But you can't even hear me when I'm screaming
Please wake me up and tell me that I'm dreaming!
I have black and blues on the surface of my chest
You knew me at my best
Yet you still put your feelings at rest
While I express and invest in you
I was blessed& impressed by you!
I was obsessed &messed up by you!
But I know that
You know that
I know that
You don't really care
Does it seem fair
That I smoke to remember the taste of your kiss that night?
That while my lips were connected to yours you already gave up the fight?
Now all I do is lay in bed,
Stare at the ceiling
With my wrists stained red
It's not appealing, the feeling,
But I am dealing
Without you.

I have so much more to say to you
But I'm at a loss for words
I used to be able to write page after page
I know this shit's absurd
You would think I'd have more to say
About how you took my heart away
Took my love for granted and put me back on layaway
You chewed me up and you spit me out
You left me crying on the side of the road
Without a doubt
You just left me there
I took you back every single time
And you still don't care
I can't express this to you
So here I rhyme
Words that cannot leave my head
I think about it day by day
The things I left unsaid
So I'll give you a shout out and a big ass fuck you instead.