I Wonder, My Love

I wonder how you have been, my love,
Days passed by without an exchange of words,
Yearning, resisting, in the cold nights, was I,
Seeking the warmth that only you can bestow.

I wonder if you’ve been crying, my love,
I imagine the image of your tear-stained eyes,
Glistening with pain and sorrow, brought by me,
The thought of that may just end my life.

I wonder if you think about me, my love,
For I was deprived of much sleep, thinking of you,
Memories of us flooded the faculties of my mind,
A mixture of anguish and delight was relived.

I wonder if you still love me, my love,
Do I even still deserve such from you?
I feel as if I am not worthy anymore,
Squandering every ounce that you pour.

I wonder if you can still take it, my love,
The bringdowns that I always cause,
Heartaches and tears, you’ve suffered,
Ravaging your once peaceful thoughts.

I wonder if I should let go, my love,
Will it free you from this pool of agony and distress?
I am willing to trade what is left of my heart,
For a smile on your lips and your infallible happiness.

I wonder about a lot of things, my love,
May it be the twinkling little stars in the sky,
But if there is one thing that I do not wonder,
It’s that I truly love you, always and ever after.