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Once again I sit alone
Constantly glued to my phone
Trying to find a way out
Trying to forget my home.

1000 miles away and I still feel the same
I was freed from hate but you will never see..
Im not mad even though you betrayed me
Over and over but there was still love from me..

I should have known..

You hate everything I am?
I wasted everything for you!
You hate everything I love
I loved again for you!

My darkness is gone and you dont care
Never more alone with feelings I fear
Trying to be human for you but here..
Ill give you my heart for you to smear.

You have me something human that I will always love.
But without her I am fucking nothing..
I dont feel anger...I dont feel hate..
I feel empty because you were second rate

I gave you all of me and you gave it back
You said You cant handle me. Said "Fuck that"
Well now here I am..fucking different and alone..
And you couldnt give a shit.. again im on my own.

I miss you..You stupid shit..
I think about it all the time..
And I cant just quit.
I gave you every part of me..That I knew how.
I lost you long ago..And I didnt even know it

I dont know what love is but im pretty sure I did..
Whatever that it stood for is make beleive today.
Hundreds of times over its the same thing.
Only in the end. You have less and less of yourself.

So here I am...
All alone..
Glued to my phone.
Biting through the tears
Trying to forget home..