Never again

Not now nor never again
I'll cut myself when I'm in pain
You believe that im insane
'cause all my efforts have been vain.

You saw my fresh cuts and my scars,
which made you think I went to far.
And now I'm laying on the floor
'cause all these pain has made me numb.

I push myself for not to cut,
I try and try but I cannot.
I don't want to let you down.
i need a way to get it arround.

I will never let you see
all the pain you cause in me.
I need to pretend i'm fine
and all my sorrow I shall hide.