Saved Yourself

I'm not saying it doesn't hurt
When one
After another
Walk out of my life
I'm not saying anything, in fact
Because if I open my mouth
My voice might crack
When I say
"It's alright, I understand"
But that's one more person
I won't worry about scaring
Or scarring
Because after a while
I begin to trust
And the darkest corners
Of my mind
Slip out past my lips
Infecting those around me
I'm like a disease
Without a cure
Without any treatment
My mind is a mess
And the constant
Constant ups and downs
Scare people off
The mood swings
The breakdowns
The crazy, impossible dreams
They push away friends
So now I'm alone
And my thoughts
Well, they're telling me things
Things I cannot repeat
I'm just glad
You got out while you could
I'm just glad
You're far from my reach
So
"It's alright, I understand"