These Thoughts
I've fucking killed myself
Long ago when I gave in
Determined I would never win
Suffering unspoken pain
I'll never feel the same
Just take it from me
Dying inside is never what is seems
The soul is built for misery
I've never felt so low
My insides churning..
For all I know!,
My soul is burning thin.
I've taken the time to look in the mirror
What I see is never what I wanted
These thoughts, they keep me up
Through the night all I see is black
Fading down and down into the void
The emptiness is real.. and something to avoid.
...
You never had to..burn me down to such a worthless being..
I get the point I see it clearly now.
I'm no better for wear or tear
Fucking useless and it's getting on my nerves,
You spout your lies..
Attracting flocks of shit
Like flies to a pile of it!
Forever beat me down..
Go as long as you want
I'll tell you one thing
Emptiness is a juggernaut.
You tell me that.. I'm a monster
Yet deep inside your just the same as me
We dance around.. The bodies of the fallen
Blinded in the grace of misery
I'll look in the mirror and see what wasn't meant to be..
I'll ride the tides of the pain
In the smallest of boats
I'll fucking take it in.
You forget that the hell..you put me through is
Nothing that I haven't seen.
You didn't have to..burn me down to such a worthless being.
I'll tell you what It's just the same
I've never felt so low before..
The darkness is captivating!
These thoughts they keep me up.
Wading through the dark
All I see is hate for you, and everything that breathes
I swear I'll be all..it takes to be the fucking king
I'll conquer your worthless threats
I'll ride the void alone
Like it's always been
You can't change what you were born with.
..
I'll tell you one thing, you worthless waste of space!
I was born to be the everything..That can handle the way
The way the misery builds inside.
It builds inside!
Because of the way you burned my life..
I'll get back up and knock you down.
I'll take the darkness and I'll wear my crown..
Take everything you've ever loved
And burn it to the fucking ground.
I am empty!
I am Worthy,
Of all the pain that I hold so dear..
I am worthless
Not on purpose
But i'll ride it out like it was.
So once again..Tell me was it all fucking worth it?!
I'll make sure you can't forget my face!
Misery loves company and in it's grace
I'll find my way back
Back to the symphony.
The song of my hope.
Fading as fast as it came
Telling myself I'll never be the same
Descend with me to the black
Where you belong as much as I
These thoughts, they keep me up
And I can't find a way to close my eyes
With these hells..repeating over again
I am the one, who will suffer my friend.
These thoughts, are dark as night
And I can all but keep them locked inside
With these hells burning brightly aside
I'll walk along and carry the torch
The flame the burns you die
Long ago when I gave in
Determined I would never win
Suffering unspoken pain
I'll never feel the same
Just take it from me
Dying inside is never what is seems
The soul is built for misery
I've never felt so low
My insides churning..
For all I know!,
My soul is burning thin.
I've taken the time to look in the mirror
What I see is never what I wanted
These thoughts, they keep me up
Through the night all I see is black
Fading down and down into the void
The emptiness is real.. and something to avoid.
...
You never had to..burn me down to such a worthless being..
I get the point I see it clearly now.
I'm no better for wear or tear
Fucking useless and it's getting on my nerves,
You spout your lies..
Attracting flocks of shit
Like flies to a pile of it!
Forever beat me down..
Go as long as you want
I'll tell you one thing
Emptiness is a juggernaut.
You tell me that.. I'm a monster
Yet deep inside your just the same as me
We dance around.. The bodies of the fallen
Blinded in the grace of misery
I'll look in the mirror and see what wasn't meant to be..
I'll ride the tides of the pain
In the smallest of boats
I'll fucking take it in.
You forget that the hell..you put me through is
Nothing that I haven't seen.
You didn't have to..burn me down to such a worthless being.
I'll tell you what It's just the same
I've never felt so low before..
The darkness is captivating!
These thoughts they keep me up.
Wading through the dark
All I see is hate for you, and everything that breathes
I swear I'll be all..it takes to be the fucking king
I'll conquer your worthless threats
I'll ride the void alone
Like it's always been
You can't change what you were born with.
..
I'll tell you one thing, you worthless waste of space!
I was born to be the everything..That can handle the way
The way the misery builds inside.
It builds inside!
Because of the way you burned my life..
I'll get back up and knock you down.
I'll take the darkness and I'll wear my crown..
Take everything you've ever loved
And burn it to the fucking ground.
I am empty!
I am Worthy,
Of all the pain that I hold so dear..
I am worthless
Not on purpose
But i'll ride it out like it was.
So once again..Tell me was it all fucking worth it?!
I'll make sure you can't forget my face!
Misery loves company and in it's grace
I'll find my way back
Back to the symphony.
The song of my hope.
Fading as fast as it came
Telling myself I'll never be the same
Descend with me to the black
Where you belong as much as I
These thoughts, they keep me up
And I can't find a way to close my eyes
With these hells..repeating over again
I am the one, who will suffer my friend.
These thoughts, are dark as night
And I can all but keep them locked inside
With these hells burning brightly aside
I'll walk along and carry the torch
The flame the burns you die