03/15/2016 || 9.22pm

There's no love left here
Not in this home
A mother doesn't say
"I love you."
To the oldest anymore
No just
"Pick this shit up."
"Clean this mess up."
I can't remember the last time
The last time my mother just said
"Hey baby how was your day?"
I can't remember the last time
She wasn't drunk when I got home
She's always drunk
I'm relieved when she works all day
It's better that way,
When I don't see her all day.

I'm just my mom's devastation
She didn't want a kid
I ruined her life
A life of
Underage drinking
Drug abuse and
bad relationships.

She doesn't love me as much now
I'm sixteen
She can't doll me up anymore
Can't manipulate me
Doesn't love me at all...

Neither parent does
Child of two fucked up teens
It was so bad that I
Well,
...I turned into one myself.