kill me now i hate myself!

Every thought i have is of you
as i sit in bed and cry, your on my mind.
listing to our song and wishing i could of kissed you one more time,
just thinking how we used to be so close and now its all gone
i sitll love you.

i miss you. i feel like your gone forever,
you were my best friend, my boyfriend, my life....

i always said i would die for you,
i guess i am now.
this blade is always cutting deeper into me.
i have my friend but its not the same,
you always said you loved me
you wanted to marry me, what happend?

i feel like i died and went to hell.
babie, i would do anything to have you back
we went through so much and now its gone.
my world has no meaning
i dont know what to do
if you loved me then why did you leave me
just because i am cutting.
thats no reson
if you loved me you would of said sumthing.
you hurt me so much.

i love you babie
i need you, you are my air, my oxegen, my everything.
i want to tell you so much
my unhappieness has taken over.
i dont want to talk anymore
all i wanted was you and i to be toghether.
but i cant even do that right.
im usless
i cant do anything right

Why am I Even Here Still, My cuts are getting deeper and im suffer from depression i want to take pain killers and anti- depressants. i cant tell any one ..

this is not really a poem i just had to share it, you can comment if you want.