Realized Too Late

Twisting and turning trying to fall asleep.
Time is running out
And I don’t know what to think
I know what I should do
But I have a girlfriend and I can't have you
As much as I want you I know this isn't right
I should stay faithful to her
Even if it's just for this one night.
In the past you caused me a lot of pain
Which was the reason why
I pushed you away
I thought we weren’t right together
That we weren’t meant to be
But it took for you to leave
For me to finally see
That I belong with you and you belong to me
I hate you I hate you
I know that’s what i should say
But every time i see your face
The hurt and pain magically goes away.
I have to go to sleep i have to wake up soon
But my dreams are haunting me
With pictures of you
Every time i close my eyes
All I see is your face
And it takes me back to our last day
Our last day of love my last day of pain
I never thought i’d feel this way
I feel in love with you
And i don’t know how to take it away
As the pain fades i want to get out
I want to stop loving you
But i just don’t know how
The last day i saw you
I thought i would feel relieved
But now i’m here in my bed
Drowning in my own self pity
Crying and crying
I don’t know how to make it stop
However i sit here
And rely on drugs and alcohol
I love you so much
I didn't think it would be this hard
She can’t replace you
No matter how far you are
I called and called yet you don’t pick up
I think i lost you for good
And that makes me want to throw up
I Never thought you’d leave
I Never thought you’d go
Now that you have
I'm lost and don’t know where to go
Sitting in my bed thinking about her
Maybe she was right
You are the one