An Attempt

Panicked voices,
Distant and muted
“I need help in here!”
Everyone
There in an instant
I watch from above
As they pull my lifeless body
Out of the bathroom
Away from escape
They lift me up
Knees buckle and
The ground hits me

Slowly
I go back to my body
Expanding into my limbs
I push them away
I realize what happened
I realize that
It didn’t work
I push more violently
And curl into myself
Sobbing
Ringing in the room,
“Why didn’t you let me die?!”