Violining My Wrists

I'm in pain... again
Doesn't matter how it began
All that matters now
Is fast I can run

To me all your wrongs
Are all kinds of right
Tailored for me
Bright green lights

The whole point is to sell
Whatever part of yourself
Even the pain, the grit
My humility.. watch it

To me its like a violin
Stop telling me its a sin
Its all I have to be beautiful again
See my pain, See my red lines
My music notes
Its pretty... white lines

Watch me make music

Sweet intentions
Bitter emotions
Make pretty lyrics
Watch my hysterics

Its only a good show
If I take off my clothes
But your smile so big
I wish it was enough just to song

I live for you and not for me
This can only end badly
I exist to please
How do I make myself happy

Where's my value
Is it only as a shiny toy
Can't find that in you
So how do I make do

How do I do me
I wanna be happy
Just wannna get off alone

I wanna get off alone
Get free, be happy
Without someone to watch over me
Yeah what I really need
Is to stand on my own two feet

How do I escape famailrity
Do I really wanna
'Cause Daddy's my only sense of security
The world seems so scary