Screaming My Addiction

Scream!.. Scream!..
All I can do is fucking scream!
Pulling out my hair..
Gasping for the air..
God, please let this be a dream..

Neck deep in shit, not dealing with it..
Anger and anxiety pouring out the seams,
Maybe this is it, my life is counterfeit..
This world isn't what it fucking seems!

My reflection..! A rotten picture painted,
To all my faliure and time wasted
Shatter the glass, splintering frutration
Before I know, I'm fucking wasted...

Hard liqour and drugs are my therapy..
My problem is I run out of whiskey,
Another lid to lean on, gone within me!
Another session of drugs to break free...

Maybe therapy really doesnt work after all

Fuck!
Everywhere I look!
Confronted with the faces of bullshit, lies, hypocrisy,
All around, the face of the fucking enemy!
Stare me dead in the face and tell me!
All your god damn problems,
All your fucking burdens,
All of your opinions,
Like I no one's fucking heard it?!
Try to convince everyone you're perfect,
When you know you're a peice of shit!
But really,
IT'S JUST ME
The "enemy" is everytime I breathe
Everytime I see my fucking face
I have to Scream!
I can do nothing but...

Scream!...Scream!..
My knees are growing weak!
Frustration drives me to the brink!..
...Tearing through my stuff
Just for the drugs and drink..
To neglect the need to think..
To forget the what made me...

Addicted to the pain, addicted to the sting
My fucking mind is going black
Walk around with a peice,
Trying to get my peace back
My sober mind, wants to take life
I could sit back, relax and, cock the hammer back
And be gone before I know what's right.

I have a fucking probem...
Stress demands I'll drink tonight,
Hopefully I'll stop screaming...
Before I lose my fucking mind...