What I Want

What I Want
Nameless
That is my name
I don’t have memories
When I look in the mirror, my face is blurred
When I speak, my voice does nothing but whisper.
I don’t feel any emotion.
I am what you call, the background character
No name
No face
Nothing
I don’t see anything
I don’t hear anything
I don’t feel anything.
A name
A face
Emotions
I really want all these things
Until,
at last,
I’m named.
My name is Ugly.
I see my reflection
My face looks like it’s melting.
I can hear my voice,
It sounds like a goat
I sing, and croak what was supposed to be a love song.
I feel emotions.
Shame
Sadness
Loneliness
Pain.
It was what I asked for
Not what I wanted.
Now i ask to go back,
But you dont always get what you want.