When I Go

Deafening silence,
The scuff of my shoes,
That is the distance
Between me and you.

That is the valley,
That's my great divide,
my one way of knowing
our young love has died.

You don't understand me,
And I feel for you.
You have your emotions,
so what can I do?

I sit in my bathroom,
Or alone outside
Imagine an ending
For the things I have tried.

I have to hang up.
We talk on the phone,
Argument or discussion,
We're both alone.

I don't want to fight you.
You say that we're not,
But that's not what I see,
And I can't make it stop.

I used to be happy,
I still care quite a lot.
I don't want to be without you,
But that's about all I've got.

Your life isn't easy,
Well neither is mine.
I've been right beside you,
Yet always behind.

I am the pavement you walk,
The road on which you rely,
But what would happen
If pavement could die?

Do you see how I suffer,
My work or my tears?
Do you care how I labor
Or scream in deaf ears?