Depression Means

I just want to
Destroy Everything
Tear it to shreds
To wake up this morning
In a ripped apart bed.

My eyes just won't close
And god only knows
The things my head said.

I just want to
Shout all the hurt out
Take aim at the voice
That fills me with doubt
But that's not a choice.

My brain just won't quit
And god only knows
I can't deal with it.

I just want to
Hurt something in me
That isn't my heart
That something that bleeds
But I simply can't start.

My body just shakes
And god only knows
I quiver and quake.