Heavy

With a heavy heart, I wonder when all the happiness disappeared
When did it start fading away?
All of my emotions I tried to keep under lock and key
But seeing you and how you are,
All of it come back
writing this does very little to ease my pain
Everyday, I seek solace in writing and games, but that solace is temporary
Pain and sadness go hand in hand with me as I traverse the sea that is life
Setting sail on the river of time
Hoping
Waiting you'll wake up and want to set things right
But that hope is fading, just like my love for you
The door is slowly closing on you to be a mother
But our bond is already severed