Everything

Everything feels different.

I feel different.

My world has collapsed time and time again.

I have rebuilt over and over.

Determined to be stronger

Determined to not fall apart again.

Determined to be strong and a force.

I can’t.

I won’t.

I must.

I don’t have the ability to do what I have to on my own but all I have is myself.

Me.

Myself.

And I.

There are others but I am not enough

I’m a burden.

I can’t ask for help.

I won’t get what I need.

I have to do it myself.

I have to survive.

I can’t.

I won’t.

I must.

I strive to help others.

I want to be there.

I want to share my love.

I want to give my all to people even though I have nothing to give.

I can’t have the people around me hurt.

I have enough of that in me to last for eternity.

I don’t have many there for me.

I am struggling.

I am trying to figure things out.

Failing.

Unable to do what I want.

Unable to be who I want to be.

Unable to be me.

Myself.

And I.

No one should have to feel the way I do.

My world has collapsed time and time again.

I have rebuilt over and over.

Determined to be stronger

Determined to not fall apart again.

Determined to be strong and a force.

I can’t.

I won’t.

I must.