I Loved Him
Did I love him ?
The answer is yes
I found myself asking questions
That I already knew the answer to
There was nothing he said, nothing he did to change anything
But it did; it changed everything.
Within the blink of an eye.
His life changed and so did mine
My feelings; my love; my devotion to him; it just faded with time.
When I could no longer call him mine.
He chose her and that nearly killed me watching him give everything to someone that wasn’t me.
Why wasn’t I worthy ?
When I gave him all that I could
It wasn’t enough it was just too good? Too good for a man who simply didn’t know what it was like to be loved.
So did I love him
The answer is yes
I never regret I just wish him the best. He’s not a bad guy, he never really was, he was just a little too confused; a little too scared of being used. But he ended up losing the one thing thing that could’ve been great, his muse.
She knew she was great; he knew he could’ve had it all
Only if he wouldn’t have stopped himself from the fall.
I get that it can be scary; to be vulnerable, to be emotional
But, god never said life would be easy; however, he did say that it would be worth it
It could’ve been great, me and him. But how could it if he would never allow it. So the question remains ?
Was it his fault ? Was he blinded by the sudden urge for lust? He could’ve had love, he could’ve had happiness? Was it jeopardized by the desperate reach for satisfaction?
Love is a scary thing yet she was willing to risk it all for a man who was still trying to figure it out
It’s not his fault but neither is it hers so who’s to blame ?
Maybe love isn’t always supposed to stay
Maybe it was for the best that she walked away
Just unresolved feelings without answers or unrequited love that’s never transferred.
So did I love him ?
The answer is yes
I did love him
But I just learned to love me
More than I ever loved him
I finally transferred that love
So is it fair to say I win ?
The answer is yes
I found myself asking questions
That I already knew the answer to
There was nothing he said, nothing he did to change anything
But it did; it changed everything.
Within the blink of an eye.
His life changed and so did mine
My feelings; my love; my devotion to him; it just faded with time.
When I could no longer call him mine.
He chose her and that nearly killed me watching him give everything to someone that wasn’t me.
Why wasn’t I worthy ?
When I gave him all that I could
It wasn’t enough it was just too good? Too good for a man who simply didn’t know what it was like to be loved.
So did I love him
The answer is yes
I never regret I just wish him the best. He’s not a bad guy, he never really was, he was just a little too confused; a little too scared of being used. But he ended up losing the one thing thing that could’ve been great, his muse.
She knew she was great; he knew he could’ve had it all
Only if he wouldn’t have stopped himself from the fall.
I get that it can be scary; to be vulnerable, to be emotional
But, god never said life would be easy; however, he did say that it would be worth it
It could’ve been great, me and him. But how could it if he would never allow it. So the question remains ?
Was it his fault ? Was he blinded by the sudden urge for lust? He could’ve had love, he could’ve had happiness? Was it jeopardized by the desperate reach for satisfaction?
Love is a scary thing yet she was willing to risk it all for a man who was still trying to figure it out
It’s not his fault but neither is it hers so who’s to blame ?
Maybe love isn’t always supposed to stay
Maybe it was for the best that she walked away
Just unresolved feelings without answers or unrequited love that’s never transferred.
So did I love him ?
The answer is yes
I did love him
But I just learned to love me
More than I ever loved him
I finally transferred that love
So is it fair to say I win ?