The Birds On Her Birdfeeder
She watched idly
From her window
Birds having a go
At her birdfeeder
A moment of tranquility
In the starting process
Of recovery
From a mental breakdown
She wanted to put it behind her
And to do so was a process
But the events still lingered
She was haunted
Haunted by her past
And what she did
What she became
Her guilt
She felt guilt
Guilt for having lived
And guilt for what she did
She wanted to atone
Perhaps, she wanted her pain to end
She told no one
And she tried
The first time failed
And, in the other attempt,
She was saved
She wanted to forget that
But she couldn't
No, she'd never forget that
She couldn't forget
Her sister's tear-streaked face
No, that traumatized her
More than her childhood did
She wanted to protect her
But, by dying, she would've left her
Alone
Alone as she was
With her father and sister
Both gone
Snatched away
She couldn't do that
She had to keep fighting
For her sister
She needed help
She went on a "retreat"
And is seeing
Someone to help
Taking her medicines
And moving passed it
Here she was
Currently, watching idly
From her window
Birds having a go
At her birdfeeder
A moment of tranquility
As her recovery begins
And continues
From her window
Birds having a go
At her birdfeeder
A moment of tranquility
In the starting process
Of recovery
From a mental breakdown
She wanted to put it behind her
And to do so was a process
But the events still lingered
She was haunted
Haunted by her past
And what she did
What she became
Her guilt
She felt guilt
Guilt for having lived
And guilt for what she did
She wanted to atone
Perhaps, she wanted her pain to end
She told no one
And she tried
The first time failed
And, in the other attempt,
She was saved
She wanted to forget that
But she couldn't
No, she'd never forget that
She couldn't forget
Her sister's tear-streaked face
No, that traumatized her
More than her childhood did
She wanted to protect her
But, by dying, she would've left her
Alone
Alone as she was
With her father and sister
Both gone
Snatched away
She couldn't do that
She had to keep fighting
For her sister
She needed help
She went on a "retreat"
And is seeing
Someone to help
Taking her medicines
And moving passed it
Here she was
Currently, watching idly
From her window
Birds having a go
At her birdfeeder
A moment of tranquility
As her recovery begins
And continues