Musings of the Night

I long
For what I can't fulfill
I'm parched in this dry hell
Some days I'm sure I will
Most days it's just grey pain
I wish I wasn't this
This body's but a shell
I'm drowning every week.

At night
When darkness creeps upon
My mind and holds me down
I bathe around in wrong
It never cleans me right
It itches and it hurts
It scratches at my heart
I don't want to wake up.

This fog
It chokes my dreams and hopes
It makes blisters on skin
It leaves behind my corpse
It brings me to my knees
I've been carved into stone
I'm scared 'cause I don't feel
'Cause I just feel too much.

I fear
That this might never end
That there's nothing inside
I'm nothing but my brain
I tore apart my life
Keep everything at bay
My future isn't bright
There's nothing left to say...