Anger

I realy try not to,
but I just cant stop,
I know I swore on your life,
I wouldnt do it tonight,
but anger just keeps building inside,
and I dont know how to let it out,
crying just makes it worse,
I stare into the darkness,
woundering what to do,
I grip the razor in my hand,
squeezing it tighter and tighter,
watching the blood trickle down my arm,
it shines in the darkness,
as the walls are closing in,
and its getting harder to breath,
i dont know how to let my anger out,
other than this,
I just feel like screaming your name,
I wish you were here to stop me,
I wishI was'nt like this,
I want to be beter,
I dont want you to worrie,
I want every thing to be ok,
but it will never be.