Lost

And she sits by the window, gazing
her eyes cold and vacant
they reflect the pain
the memories
and the regret
of a past

A past that she is
forbidden to remember
but afraid to forget

It eats at her soul
It consumes her subconscious
and it numbs her conscious

He'd hurt her
Bad

She hated him
Or, maybe,
it was herself she hated

Yes
it was

She hated herself
For loving him

and she died inside
when he did not return love

And she lives like a zombie now
only a walking body
for she lost herself
when she lost
what she never even had