TIME AND TIME AGAIN
IM SITTING HERE LISTENING TO ATREYU...
I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD YET NONE OF THEM WANT TO LET IT BE KNOWN THAT THEY ARE HERE...
IN SILENCE MY MIND SEEMS TO DRIVE ME INSANE AS THOUGHT'S OF WHAT I SHOULD AND SHOULDENT DO BEGIN TO EMERGE FROM WITHIN...
I KEEP HOLDING MY BREATH AS IF MY SOUL WERE TO ESCAPE MY BODY. KNOWING THAT IF I KEEP THIS UP I WON'T SURVIVE MY OWN TORCHER...
I HAVE TO ASK MY SELF WHAT IS MY TORCHER? THE FACT THAT I HAVE SOME THING GREAT YET THAT SEEMS SO OUT OF REACH YET IT'S SO CLOSE...I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHAT IV GOTTEN MY SELF INTO
LET ALONE I DON'T KNOW IF I WILL BE ABLE TO PULL MY SELF OUT OF THE DEEP END WHEN I LAND WITHIN THIS SEA OF EMOTIONS THAT IM DROWNING IN
AT TIME'S THEY DISSAPEAR, IM LEFT WITH NO EMOTIONS NO FEEINGS NOTHING...I SIT THERE QUIET ATEMPTING TO SEARCH MY SELF FOR SOME THING A SMALL GLIMPS OF SOME THING...YET I HAVE NOTHING.
IT SEEMS THAT THE ONE THING THAT I WANTED TO GET RID OF IS THE ONE THING THAT I AM NOW SEARCHING FOR, IT'S LEFT ME FEELING EMPTY...NOTHING BUT A HOLLOW CARCASS OF WHAT I ONCE HELD WITHIN....
DID I REALLY LOOSE IT? ARE THEY REALLY GONE? MAYBE I JUST NEED TO FIND SOME ONE THAT IS WILLING TO DIG THEM OUT OF THIS BOTTOMLESS PIT IV CREATED...
SOME TIMES I WONDER IF I DID THE RIGHT THING BY PUSHING ALL OF MY FEELINGS AWAY, BUT I KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT...THEY ARE SO GONNA COME BACK AND BITE ME SO HARD IN THE ASS LATER ON...LMAO
I JUST KNOW IT, ALL I CAN DO IS TRY TO BRACE MY SELF THE ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT I WON'T KNOW WHEN IT WILL HAPPEN SO IM SCREWED ETHER WAY.
I GUESS FOR NOW THERE IS REALLY NOTHING I CAN DO...JUST SIT BACK AND ENJOY THIS ODD YET INTERESTING RIDE THAT IS MY LIFE.
(I GUESS THAT'S IT, IRONICALY ENOUGH I WAS LISTENING TO A MIX OF A TON OF DIFERENT BANDS AND ATREYU'S "AINT LOVE GRAND" WAS ON WHEN I STARTED WRITTING THIS AND IT'S ENDING WITH ATREYUS "DEMONOLOGY AND HEARTACHE" I TELL YOU IT'S THE SIGHNS IN MY LIFE THAT DRIVE ME INSANE...)
I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD YET NONE OF THEM WANT TO LET IT BE KNOWN THAT THEY ARE HERE...
IN SILENCE MY MIND SEEMS TO DRIVE ME INSANE AS THOUGHT'S OF WHAT I SHOULD AND SHOULDENT DO BEGIN TO EMERGE FROM WITHIN...
I KEEP HOLDING MY BREATH AS IF MY SOUL WERE TO ESCAPE MY BODY. KNOWING THAT IF I KEEP THIS UP I WON'T SURVIVE MY OWN TORCHER...
I HAVE TO ASK MY SELF WHAT IS MY TORCHER? THE FACT THAT I HAVE SOME THING GREAT YET THAT SEEMS SO OUT OF REACH YET IT'S SO CLOSE...I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHAT IV GOTTEN MY SELF INTO
LET ALONE I DON'T KNOW IF I WILL BE ABLE TO PULL MY SELF OUT OF THE DEEP END WHEN I LAND WITHIN THIS SEA OF EMOTIONS THAT IM DROWNING IN
AT TIME'S THEY DISSAPEAR, IM LEFT WITH NO EMOTIONS NO FEEINGS NOTHING...I SIT THERE QUIET ATEMPTING TO SEARCH MY SELF FOR SOME THING A SMALL GLIMPS OF SOME THING...YET I HAVE NOTHING.
IT SEEMS THAT THE ONE THING THAT I WANTED TO GET RID OF IS THE ONE THING THAT I AM NOW SEARCHING FOR, IT'S LEFT ME FEELING EMPTY...NOTHING BUT A HOLLOW CARCASS OF WHAT I ONCE HELD WITHIN....
DID I REALLY LOOSE IT? ARE THEY REALLY GONE? MAYBE I JUST NEED TO FIND SOME ONE THAT IS WILLING TO DIG THEM OUT OF THIS BOTTOMLESS PIT IV CREATED...
SOME TIMES I WONDER IF I DID THE RIGHT THING BY PUSHING ALL OF MY FEELINGS AWAY, BUT I KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT...THEY ARE SO GONNA COME BACK AND BITE ME SO HARD IN THE ASS LATER ON...LMAO
I JUST KNOW IT, ALL I CAN DO IS TRY TO BRACE MY SELF THE ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT I WON'T KNOW WHEN IT WILL HAPPEN SO IM SCREWED ETHER WAY.
I GUESS FOR NOW THERE IS REALLY NOTHING I CAN DO...JUST SIT BACK AND ENJOY THIS ODD YET INTERESTING RIDE THAT IS MY LIFE.
(I GUESS THAT'S IT, IRONICALY ENOUGH I WAS LISTENING TO A MIX OF A TON OF DIFERENT BANDS AND ATREYU'S "AINT LOVE GRAND" WAS ON WHEN I STARTED WRITTING THIS AND IT'S ENDING WITH ATREYUS "DEMONOLOGY AND HEARTACHE" I TELL YOU IT'S THE SIGHNS IN MY LIFE THAT DRIVE ME INSANE...)