The Curse

BEFORE U READ (This poem was written a few years ago.. Inspired by a song called "Bloody Hands".. This isn't my best work.

Heart is locked; Souls trapped within..
The curse lives on still chasing me...
Stuck in this prison. I can't be free...
To be discriminated by one's own kin...
To years of endless mortal sins....
To those years of twisted lustful glee...

During these years I've begun to see myself change...
Becoming unknown to one's self by undesirable lust...
Leaving innocence to trail off like how wind blows dust...
A touch of dismay and slightly deranged....
A drop of confusion....And a hint of strange...
Ridding myself of this curse is an absolute must...

For how many years can one live in a lie?
Making other's believe in such false affection...
When can I kill such a lethal infection?
These immortal boundaries I wish to defy.....
Endless sorrow seen through the bloody tears I cry...
The defiled portrait I see through the mirror's reflection...

My mind has become a wasteland where darkness reigns..
The little controllable ember became a massive flame...
it's Like a beast! It's neither calm nor tame...
This hellish curse which has brought me so much pain!!
Those horrid nights which have now driven me insane!
My entire cruel existance...And am I to blame?

Out of the darkness...A single, guiding light..
A few quick, careless cuts along the line...
Besides, how can finding salvation be a crime?
The wicked deed being done tonite....
Just one more cut...Then I feel allright...
And that light that leads me with its shine.....

An empty soul...A pool of blood...
My lifeless soul has taken flight...
I shut out fear...Then shut my eyes...
Take my last breath then say good-bye..
Only to follow that guiding light...

What do yall think?