Love

Someone’s at the door
Who is it?
Love
Oh, then it must be for you
Because love I something I will never need
I learned to live without it a long time ago
What?
No
It’s not for me
My denial is justified
If someone hated you
For such a long, long time
So long that was no hope left
Do you think they would turn up on your doorstep?
Unannounced
One morning?
Like now?
I doubt it
Love turned its back on me too long ago now
Go back where you’ve been hiding, Love
I can’t handle you anymore
I’m dizzy for you
I’m lying on the floor
Help me up
Leave me alone, Love
I don’t need your help
I can’t live without you
GO AWAY!
I’m screaming now, Love
Can you hear me?!
I DON’T NEED YOU!
I’m crying now, Love
Whispering threads
Of words I used to understand
See what you’ve done to me?
I learned to live without you
Can’t you leave me alone now?
PLEASE!
I CAN’T HANDLE THIS ANYMORE!
Stagger to the bathroom
Slam the door
Your pounding hands won’t break through
You can’t reach me anymore
Will it be the open window?
Maybe the razor in the shower?
Or the pills behind the mirror?
Which is quicker?
Quickly, quickly, it seems you found your way under the crack
Through the keyhole
LET GO OF ME!
You envelop me with open arms
Despite what I already did
I took the pills
I jumped through the window
I slit my wrists wide open
I’m convulsing on the tiles
Crushed against the ground
Bleeding against the sink
I’m crying against you
I don’t know what’s going to happen

Thank you
It’ll be alright now