Your Mess

Today I fell so fast
And I hit the ground hard
The floor was cold, my mouth is dry
Why does happiness seem so far?
I'm living under a dark cloud
But where is my silver lining?
Maybe it's all a quest
And happiness is meant for finding

Cause being sick always makes me feel better
My mood is affected by the weather
I read stories about things that will never be
I concentrate too much on our history
And I ignore our futures together
I've seen hate die and I've watched love grow
Cheap suburban life is all I know
I'm a mess

Today I feel so high
But I used no chemicals
My life is good and my mouth laughs
We all make mistakes, everybody falls
But I'll savour my time at the top
The silver lining's so bright, it blinds me
Maybe it's all a test
And if it is, I hope the answers find me

Cause being sick always makes me feel better
My mood is affected by the weather
I read stories about things that will never be
I concentrate too much on our history
And I ignore our futures together
I've seen hate die and I've watched love grow
Cheap suburban life is all I know
I'm a mess

My singing's loud and my thinking is deep
Just one voice can kill my fears
I talk too much and I'm self-obsessed
I cry too much and waste my tears
I spend all my money on my hair
I will always speak the harsh truth
And that habit gets me in trouble
But that's why you love me, don't you?

Cause being sick always makes me feel better
My mood is affected by the weather
I read stories about things that will never be
I concentrate too much on our history
And I ignore our futures together
I've seen hate die and I've watched love grow
Cheap suburban life is all I know
I'm a perfect mess