It Seemed

It seemed just fine to be hated
Now I pay
It seemed just fine to believe
Guess I was wrong
It seemed just so fucking much to me
They didn't care
I didn't want to say it straight
But I feel like cutting now
I feel like giving up
I feel like breaking up
To tell myself truth I won't do a thing

The loneliness killed me once again
The tears fell angrily down
The pity for myself grew
As I lied it's gonna be fine
Cos I'm going to survive the hardest times
With a small smile creeping onto my face

It seemed that it's over
But the feeling got the best of me
It seemed I could get over
And forget loneliness exists
The darkness swallowing me today
Don't you gonna miss me then?
I'm not gonna try and beg you
I'm just a catastrophic loner
Pessimist with no life at all
I've got a past with no future
Breaking down when it's too much than I can take!

The loneliness killed me once again
The tears fell angrily down
The pity for myself grew
As I lied it's gonna be fine
Cos I'm going to survive the hardest times
With a small smile creeping onto my face

There's a promise I vowed to myself
It keeps me sane
Every time the feeling's getting
So much stronger than I
There's a chance that one day
I'll get out from the trap
I threw myself into
So suddenly

The loneliness killed me once again
The tears fell angrily down
The pity for myself grew
As I lied it's gonna be fine
Cos I'm going to survive the hardest times
With a small smile creeping onto my face

The loneliness killed me once again
The tears fell angrily down
The pity for myself grew
As I lied it's gonna be fine
Cos I'm going to survive the hardest times
With a small smile creeping onto my face