scars

I keep the knife sharp
The blade to my heart
Constantly cutting , making new marks
That’s what it feels like to hold you in my heart

That searing connection
My pursuit of your perfection
Its like cutting into my own heart

I try to let go, I try to change
But you lie to yourself and think I’m the same.
I take another chance, I hold out for you
And I add another scar to my heart too

So many scars, in so little space
They’re all like a map
Leading to one place
You

And each holds a story, a memory too
Just another time that I bled for you
Cut up my heart and died inside for you

I cant let you go and I’m running out of room
I cant afford anymore scars from you
I wont continue to pray for you
I’m not the one to save you

I know your not the angle heaven let me think was you
And I wish I could forget all the time I shared with you
But I could never let go of you

So I
Keep the knife sharp
The blade to my heart
Constantly cutting, making new marks
that’s what I get for holding on to you
For falling in love with you

And these scars are how I’ll remember you