Pay attention

Damn what do I have to do to show you Im still here
Ive been waiting for a long time to prove
Prove that Im talented, that im special and not like you
But however hard I scream you never even move
forgive me for attention seeking, annoying you
But this is my way of finding my place
Hear my voice im calling out to you
Have you even seen my face?
Notice my brother and all that hes become
Taking intrests in his whole life
The only way you would notice me
Is if I took this fucking knife
You only want my time when you want to know
If Im still alive or something thats on your mind
Pay attention to me when I want something
Im lonley so mother, please be kind.