I Just Don't Get It

I find that it is always hard
To make things go my way
I spent awhile crying
A snap and all's okay

Now months are going by
At some crazy rate
I love him more than ever before
And I got my first date

I never even realized it
As all this was going on
And analyzing all the day
Alone from dusk to dawn

Why won’t he leave my head?
Leave me be, for just a day
Years with this are hard to bare
It’s not my fault anyway

So this is how I feel right now
It changes all the time
Tomorrow will bring something else
But I don’t really mind

Not anymore, I don’t care
This is what I wanted
I love it and I hate it
I feel I’m being taunted

Left and right changes made
Every single day
I wake each morning nervous
And a stomach made of clay

But I don’t know what else to do
There are things he needs to know
We will get there one day
Tomorrow maybe so

I worry way too much
I know things will turn out
But it’s hard to be patient
When I want him by me now

I am sorry if you are left alone
But I won’t hide this anymore
I finally have a piece
And it's come to make me sore

I don’t know why it is this way
I’m still so very confused
But you are always there
That you may assume

There is one vow I take
I won’t regret these dates
Times we spend that I write down
Before they’re gone and it’s too late

And you must understand
If you need me, I’ll be there
Hold me up and kiss me now
Anytime and anywhere

I love you for today
But that will never change
I can’t seem to give it up
So I’ll unlock the chains

For tomorrow, what you do
For that I love you too
The day after, it’s fair game
But chances are it stays the same