Him...Again.

Turns out I was wrong.
He's more then just screwing.
I asked him and his response was simply
"I turn them down when they want to get physical".
Hearing those words gave me a sense of satisfaction.
But...something's still there.
He thinks of us as "you emo's".
Cutting myself is a way out.
If only for a few seconds then that'll have to do.
But I can't give up my feelings about life for him.
I really only hang out with people who feel the same pain.
But there was something about him.
Something that I felt connected to.
I don't know if I'm really giving him a chance.
I know crying doesn't help.
But neither does cutting.