My Barren Demise

Who are you to laugh at me?
Who are you to put me down?
You're supposed to love me,
not drive me into the ground.

Now here I am, cold and alone.
I call no one here family,
I call a dark mind my home.
Waiting for you to at least call me.

Naked, I lie in an overgrown field
as above me lightening strikes,
the tall dead grass I call my shield.
Did I ever do anything right?

You found me an amusing novelty,
played with me then cast me aside.
I wasn't quite 'Perfect Girl' quality.
With the last thunder crash another piece of me died.

Shivering with silent delight I let the rain wash my bare body,
I let it wash away the last bit of you.
I want back what you took of me.
Tears and rain make me into something new.

Arms crossed over goose-fleshed breasts,
I laugh bitterly over what I've lost.
You blackened the beating heart in my chest.
Loving you truly did cost.

The switchblade next to me is begging for blood,
the knife is the last with whom I'll make love.
Like an animal I'll die in the mud.
I don't expect to be received above.

Look what I've done,
look what I am.
This was all about you, hon.
To silent pain I'm damned.

Rain washed blood wets my body.
It doesn't matter anymore.
It was only me.
I closed the door.

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I wrote this last year.
I was going through an old notebook and found it.