Heart Stop

His words stopped my heart beat.
Leaving me confused and clue less,
And tripping over my feet
Now I have to clean up this mess.

I can’t tell if it was excitement
I sort of wanted it.
I can’t tell if it was being upset.
I didn’t put up a fit.

I’m torn in two
And clueless of what to do.

I love him when he’s here
When he’s gone I love the other him
Making a mistake is my biggest fear,
A mistake that would make the feature grim.

I gave him a one more chance
Not even giving myself one
I’m scared to end this ‘romance’
But it needs to be done.

I wish I didn’t feel like this
Unhappy, Crappy, and lost
Knowing I’ll miss his kiss
Is it worth the cost?

I know he needs me.
Notice it’s not a want.
This isn’t how it should be.
This feelings gonna haunt

It’ll hurt him more
Just to sit and wait.
Hanging 5 feet off the floor
No, the one thing I’d hate

People say do
People say don’t.
But I have no clue
And if I don’t I won’t

War taking place in my head
Stuck completely in the center
Just wishing this would end
Wish it never entered

Stayed up hours of the night
Crying off and on
Wanting to give up this fight
Wish this clueless ness gone.