Nothing but a memory

I watch you pass me in the halls,
day by day.
I stare at you through lunch and you
never caught me, not even once..

P.E. starts and you're in my class
I stare baffled by you tight abs
I sit with my friends
watching the basketball game
Praying you won't get hurt,
But that's never sane.

You were slammed onto the ground
and my heart neverly stopped
I was frozen.
I couldn't breathe.
until you got up

I was so relieved and my friends just smiled
for the little mircle,
god just shared.

The day ends and I'm at my locker,
I hear your voice behind me and my heart
pounded behind my chest
wanting and trying to get out
But I guess you know the rest.
I forced myself to calm down
Until you spoke my name
I turned around sharply but only saw the pain
You were so close that it hurt to say,
Just Go.. Go away

I can't tell myself to love you again
But I can't hate you either
Because you taught me the one thing about love
That it never goes the way you want it to

So now I leave you standing there looking
sad as can be
You thought you'd win me back?
You're nothing but a memory.
A dark shadow of my past
That I'm trying to forget
And he makes it easy with that first little kiss

Sure it hurts to see you
but time is being good to me
since that day you told me we're through
another helped me causing no pain
as you can see you had a fair game

But now you lost your chance
and are all alone
Just take a deep breath
and walk away
Because I want to be.
Nothing more than a memory.