breakthrough

decisions i cant seem to make
peoples feelings are at stake
true feelings i cant seem to fake
and this wall i just can not break
pessimistic throughts i cant neglect
i sit and ponder than reflect
too many thgouhts to collect
so many details to inspect
clouded mind is what i see
blinding what means most to me
trying to pull myself free
and see what is meant to be
to think thoughts that were forbade
now feelings recieved i wouldnt trade
and when my mind is finally made
this time my heart shall not fade
all efforts put towards this breakthrough
making an oath to these ways anew
to find my feelings solid and true
hopefully leading me straight to you.