Forgive me?

Dark thoughts plague me night and day
I always wish they'd go away
You give me hope
instead of rope

Blood staineds tissues
and forgotten issues
The past is never laid to rest
The future is a brand new test

I have sinned beyond repair
time goes on never to spare
a second glace
on a forgotten trance

I watched you walk away
to this day
I wished my life
would end with a knife

I cannot be forgiven until I learn
how to earn:
their trust, their love, their friendship;
their life. So i take a sip

Heres to the darkness that plauges today
the crimes that happened yesterday
The new betrayal of tomorrow
Now just go!

The past is never laid to rest
The future is a brand new test
Emotions hidden
Am I forgiven?
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