Blind, but it's for you

i hide my thoughts to make you feel better.
make you smile
for one day you'll open your eyes and see the pain it causes me.
but your blind
an edged knife goes in when you smile I'm so close to saying how i really feel and the knife comes out again stabbing, hurting. this causes lies to let you hear what you want and not what you should.
i think ....... should i tell you the truth when you think you know me? should i lie to save you... the pain? what should i do?
i look at your smile
it will cause me pain either way
walking swiftly
you eyes on me
my mouth opens
i breath deep
the air leave fast, whossing out of my lungs...hit!
by the tears
i sooth you and think it's better to let you be blind.
will it hurt later? will she notice on her own? for now it hurts me less to see it your way.
Blind until you want to open your eyes.