Desperate

Love.

I explore the feeling as I'm in your arms,
The gentle blanket that keeps me from harm.

Happiness.

The bubbling feeling in my body's core,
Something I will cherish for forever more.

Uncertainty.

The glint you have in your eye when you talk to me,
A restlessness in your words...But it cannot be.

Desperation.

Attempts to fix the holes that have bloomed,
And before I know it, our relationship's doomed.

Pleading.

My cries for a reason why,
Before leaving my lips, they immediately die.

Coolness.

From your voice, it sounds like frost,
Your ignorance in the things I have lost.

Anger.

How could you play with me that way?
Why don't you have anything else to say?

Depression.

The feel of disappointment I have in you,
The stupid things you put me through.

Fear.

The sense of panic in the center of my chest,
A sensation that just as well blocks out the rest.

Heart-ache.

Something that's stronger than knives,
Something that could surely take lives.

Realization.

I was just a toy to you,
Nothing more; nothing new.

Melt-down.

A feeling of loss and despair,
Knowing that you did anything but care.

Loss.

The pain-staking feel of nothing,
I'd do anything to feel something.

Steadiness.

My friends are there with their arms wide,
They do not leave me, they don't push me aside.

Relief.

That I have people that do care, that do love,
And as I realize that, the sun shines from above.

Safety.

I know that my friends will be my safety net,
And wipe away all tears I shall shed.

Love.

Something that makes me break out in song,
Something that I really had all along.