Blood Sugar
Life is so sweet, life is so great
just relax and leave everything up to fate
just relax and let everything go your way
just relax and sit back, Im gonna have a great day
Everything is so good, bliss to the brim
theres no such thing as darkness, theres nothing so grim
nothing can go wrong, nothing can go bad
if everythings so awesome... how the hell'd I go mad?
In reality I sit here with a full syringe
My eyes are burning, I smell insulin
life is too sweet, all I can taste is sour
It makes me so weak, where the hell is my power?
Life cant be sweet, there is nothing good
all thats real is this hopelessness, I feel I should-
inject the sweet hormone, the cure to my pain
such a sweet ending, sleep away with the rain...
Im hurting so much, I cant stand anymore
I tried and I failed, my foot pushed from the door-
of the house of life, thats fine since I know whats within
unrelenting suffering, thats the truth, the real sin
I used to know why, but my reason is gone
I dont believe in happy endings, there are no happy songs
everything is so wrong, why should I prolong-
this human existence when Ive already been here too long?
I cant wait it out and Im so afraid
always chilled to the bone, so alone with no aid
so upset and angry, Im so sick inside
and I cant get out, cant be helped, my brain feels so fried
It makes my stomach writhe when I think
Im gonna puke, I can already smell stink
I can smell the decay in my black casket
Im still afraid I'll wake up in this buried basket
Cremate me please, dont let me remain
bury my ashes, forget my lost name
Im still so worried that Im wrong about God
and I'll fall back into suffering, white coals to trod
In life and in death I'll never know
I'll always be hurting, lost with nowhere to go
to live or to die? Im so damn unsure...
Was I always like this, so screwed up and impure?
What a dilemma, what the hell can I do?
I gotta go somewhere, but nothing will be new...
Im so goddamn afraid to live or to die
And Im so sick in the head, I cant even cry...
In reality, nothing ever was great
Im sitting here analyzing all fate
Im so lost and upset and I have nowhere to stay
And just under the surface, Im hating today...
Life is too sweet and my blood sugar is too high
Im gripping the syringe but I cant write my goodbye
I cant welcome death no matter how I wish he would visit
Nothing can help me... so just how sweet is it?
just relax and leave everything up to fate
just relax and let everything go your way
just relax and sit back, Im gonna have a great day
Everything is so good, bliss to the brim
theres no such thing as darkness, theres nothing so grim
nothing can go wrong, nothing can go bad
if everythings so awesome... how the hell'd I go mad?
In reality I sit here with a full syringe
My eyes are burning, I smell insulin
life is too sweet, all I can taste is sour
It makes me so weak, where the hell is my power?
Life cant be sweet, there is nothing good
all thats real is this hopelessness, I feel I should-
inject the sweet hormone, the cure to my pain
such a sweet ending, sleep away with the rain...
Im hurting so much, I cant stand anymore
I tried and I failed, my foot pushed from the door-
of the house of life, thats fine since I know whats within
unrelenting suffering, thats the truth, the real sin
I used to know why, but my reason is gone
I dont believe in happy endings, there are no happy songs
everything is so wrong, why should I prolong-
this human existence when Ive already been here too long?
I cant wait it out and Im so afraid
always chilled to the bone, so alone with no aid
so upset and angry, Im so sick inside
and I cant get out, cant be helped, my brain feels so fried
It makes my stomach writhe when I think
Im gonna puke, I can already smell stink
I can smell the decay in my black casket
Im still afraid I'll wake up in this buried basket
Cremate me please, dont let me remain
bury my ashes, forget my lost name
Im still so worried that Im wrong about God
and I'll fall back into suffering, white coals to trod
In life and in death I'll never know
I'll always be hurting, lost with nowhere to go
to live or to die? Im so damn unsure...
Was I always like this, so screwed up and impure?
What a dilemma, what the hell can I do?
I gotta go somewhere, but nothing will be new...
Im so goddamn afraid to live or to die
And Im so sick in the head, I cant even cry...
In reality, nothing ever was great
Im sitting here analyzing all fate
Im so lost and upset and I have nowhere to stay
And just under the surface, Im hating today...
Life is too sweet and my blood sugar is too high
Im gripping the syringe but I cant write my goodbye
I cant welcome death no matter how I wish he would visit
Nothing can help me... so just how sweet is it?