YOU

Watching the blood helps me keep sane
I've always wondered what it'll be like
But now I'm not the same
As I've cut my wrists with a knife
I've never thought I'd be this way
I always thought that I was happy
But I seem to be suffocating
And all I wanted was to be free
I've felt the cold bloody blade
Open up my wrists
I wonder when I'm gone
Will I go a miss?
You think you know everything about me
You didn't know you've been holding me down
You thought you were my best friend
But it was YOU I wanted to drown
I really needed to hurt myself
I needed to make myself scream
I was the one everyone hated the one to be last picked
On the friendship teams
So I'm trying to hold myself up
But I seem to be letting go
And when all this time you though I was high
I've been slipping way to low
So now I'll cut
Right through my vain
And when you say goodbye to me
Then maybe you'll feel my pain