please don't hate me

this only happens when im tired.
this only happens when im lonely
this only happens when im happy

this haunting feeling wont go away
i scream and beg for mercy everyday

its not that i am unwell
but more simply that
im just unaware

these haunted dreams
of people, close to me
not liked by me
and simply tolerated by me
are getting hurt-strung up and beaten.

this only happens in my dreams
this only happens in my mind
this only happens when i die