I Don't Know What to Do
For a while there I was able to forget
About you, about my feelings for you
But no
They came right on back and now I don’t know what to do.
For a while there I wasn’t spending my nights
Crying confused tears, confusion about you
But no
I’m confused and I’m hurting and I don’t know what to do.
Our conversations
Once long, too long according to some
Are now reduced to you making me feel, accidentally I’m sure
That I’ve done something terribly wrong.
No matter what I say
No matter how deep, how moving, how strong
You’re simple answer of ‘ok’
That’s all I’m getting these days.
We were mates!
I could tell you everything I felt
Even if it seemed awkward
When you asked me what was wrong I would melt
Right into your arms
For comfort and strength
You would make me feel better
And hold me at length
When no one else could make me smile
You could, it was that simple
But you haven’t done that for a while
So I’m left wondering what to do
What can I do to make us friends again?
What can I do to go back to normal?
How can I begin to repair this damage?
When everything between us now seems overly formal.
I don’t get a hello I don’t get a goodbye
I don’t get my morning hug.
She gets it instead and when I see that happen
I’d rather be squished like a bug
Sometimes I feel like I have been already
That I’m just sitting on the bottom of your shoe
I cry almost constantly over everything
Wishing silently that you knew
What you were doing to me with these simple gestures
How you were tearing me slowly apart
There isn’t a nicer way to say it except
Jerk, stop breaking my heart!
That’s really not fair since I haven’t told you that you’re doing it.
But you are and I’d appreciate if you stopped
I know I should tell you and give you a chance
But I really just can’t be fucked.
I have this feeling in my heart that you should just know!
I shouldn’t have to tell you
I can tell that if I try I will cry like falling snow
Fast and unrelenting.
I have this heavy feeling in my heart
And it has formed around your name
Every day and night all I think about it you
Every day and night is the same
I think about you while you’re thinking about her
Sorry but that sounds wrong to me
If I’m thinking about you be polite and think about me!
Instead of visualising ways the two of you could be
Together, right in front of my face
Not that you need any help with that section
You do it every day; you rub it in my face
Not even noticing that you’re creating friction
Between me and my friends; between me and everyone!
God open up you’re eyes!
You’re smart and gifted I know that you are.
You should be able to see through my lies!
“I’m fine, just fine.”
I’M LYING
Someone notice this; someone draw a line
Tell you where to stop
There has to be a limit of how much I can take
Before I slap you across the face
You act like you think I’m doing nothing to stop this feeling
Don’t you think I’d rather have anyone else in your place?
I would! Please give me anyone else to think about
Just don’t make me think about you
Because no offence intended mate
But I really don’t want to love you!
We have so many memories as friends
Friends; that’s it; that’s all.
But now our relationship is full of twists and bends
I’m lost in the middle and you’re not helping me out
Just stop asking me about her!
And maybe I’ll be ok
“Am I saying the right things? Does she like me at all?”
I don’t care stop making me feel this way!
I wish I could say that
Right to your face
But I’ll never be able to
So I guess this poem was just a waste.
About you, about my feelings for you
But no
They came right on back and now I don’t know what to do.
For a while there I wasn’t spending my nights
Crying confused tears, confusion about you
But no
I’m confused and I’m hurting and I don’t know what to do.
Our conversations
Once long, too long according to some
Are now reduced to you making me feel, accidentally I’m sure
That I’ve done something terribly wrong.
No matter what I say
No matter how deep, how moving, how strong
You’re simple answer of ‘ok’
That’s all I’m getting these days.
We were mates!
I could tell you everything I felt
Even if it seemed awkward
When you asked me what was wrong I would melt
Right into your arms
For comfort and strength
You would make me feel better
And hold me at length
When no one else could make me smile
You could, it was that simple
But you haven’t done that for a while
So I’m left wondering what to do
What can I do to make us friends again?
What can I do to go back to normal?
How can I begin to repair this damage?
When everything between us now seems overly formal.
I don’t get a hello I don’t get a goodbye
I don’t get my morning hug.
She gets it instead and when I see that happen
I’d rather be squished like a bug
Sometimes I feel like I have been already
That I’m just sitting on the bottom of your shoe
I cry almost constantly over everything
Wishing silently that you knew
What you were doing to me with these simple gestures
How you were tearing me slowly apart
There isn’t a nicer way to say it except
Jerk, stop breaking my heart!
That’s really not fair since I haven’t told you that you’re doing it.
But you are and I’d appreciate if you stopped
I know I should tell you and give you a chance
But I really just can’t be fucked.
I have this feeling in my heart that you should just know!
I shouldn’t have to tell you
I can tell that if I try I will cry like falling snow
Fast and unrelenting.
I have this heavy feeling in my heart
And it has formed around your name
Every day and night all I think about it you
Every day and night is the same
I think about you while you’re thinking about her
Sorry but that sounds wrong to me
If I’m thinking about you be polite and think about me!
Instead of visualising ways the two of you could be
Together, right in front of my face
Not that you need any help with that section
You do it every day; you rub it in my face
Not even noticing that you’re creating friction
Between me and my friends; between me and everyone!
God open up you’re eyes!
You’re smart and gifted I know that you are.
You should be able to see through my lies!
“I’m fine, just fine.”
I’M LYING
Someone notice this; someone draw a line
Tell you where to stop
There has to be a limit of how much I can take
Before I slap you across the face
You act like you think I’m doing nothing to stop this feeling
Don’t you think I’d rather have anyone else in your place?
I would! Please give me anyone else to think about
Just don’t make me think about you
Because no offence intended mate
But I really don’t want to love you!
We have so many memories as friends
Friends; that’s it; that’s all.
But now our relationship is full of twists and bends
I’m lost in the middle and you’re not helping me out
Just stop asking me about her!
And maybe I’ll be ok
“Am I saying the right things? Does she like me at all?”
I don’t care stop making me feel this way!
I wish I could say that
Right to your face
But I’ll never be able to
So I guess this poem was just a waste.