upper hand

you say your love is stronger then words alone
the scars on my arm are my only way home
i look in the mirror but i cant see it
what you see, why you start shit
you act as if im your bitch telling me what to do, when to, how to
i wish you would realize im my own person, i dont belong to you
i cried last night, nothing new to my routein since then
i want to stop, i just dont know when
the hospital room seems so friendly since the last time
everything i do seems like a big fat crime
i can go back when i please
just slide that blade with such sweet ease
they'll lock me up for months or weeks
the time spent there is all i seek
your love is not great nor is it grand
im telling you,, i have the upper hand