Breaking my dawn

This is what I’ve come to
I’ve gone cold, honey
For every step I took forward
They kick me down and push me back

Time is all I need I say;
But in the mean time
If that’s all you wanted fro me, I can’t give it to you
Don’t waste your time on me
You’ll forget me by next week

The blackness pushes through breaking my dawn
My eyes open seeing the same shade of shit that covers me from day to day
I swear I’ve had it up to here

Day in day out
I wake up, I swear I’m alive
Am I living for me?
For the past five years I’ve lived the same day over and over