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And I never thought I’d see the day, when you broke my heart
But I guess living with you for so long means I cannot live apart.
It’s not love, I will say, but I want you to know it’s a lie
Because I can’t walk past you without you making me cry.
And I opened up; I was vunerable and weak and yours
And it wasn’t the leaving that hurt me-it was simply the cause.
For you to degrade me like that was more than I could ever bear
And it’s not even a wound that we could possibly share.
Because you could have had me forever, I hope that you know
I would never have run away in bitterness, I would never have said no.
We could have been star-crossed, something might have appeared
To save you the trouble of reducing me to tears.
I underestimated my emotions for you and then I opened my eyes
And now I want it to be easy, I want it to work without the try.
I don’t want your excuses, your lies, and I defiantly don’t want the truth
Because that will settle the fact that I’ve lost hope in you.
I’ll never have you back-as a friend, enemy, worse or more
All I have is the throbbing, self-inflicted sore.
You carved scars deep in me; you broke something I never knew was there
And you broke it twice over when you said you don’t care.
You don’t regret a thing; you don’t mourn what we once knew
As far as you’re concerned, I never meant anything at all to you.
I would like to think it is a front-underneath you are sorry and wrong
Or maybe, to hurt me, you’re just playing along.
There are a thousand and one things that I would like to say to you
I would like to scream them, sob them; I would like you to listen and think them to be true.
And there’s a little aching part of me that wishes that you’d never existed
And I was immune; a mask never to be affected.
And I can’t stand the way you look at me now, with pity for the freak
Who isn’t quiet, small, smiling; who isn’t afraid, who isn’t meek.
The girl you turned away because she didn’t act enough like one
The girl who’s changed, the girl who’s gone.
He’s not sorry, for all the things he’s done, all the crimes he’d committed
And he is oblivious to all of the times that I’ve regretted.
And he is acting tough; he is marching tall, he only feels relief
Because he lied to my face when he said he could love a girl like me.
How many times can I turn my back and lie to myself?
Before I fall for you, you refuse to catch me, and I cry for help?
I am sitting with my heart right out, my blood across my cheeks and my passion in my hands
And I am wincing away from another expected reprimand.
I just couldn’t see it coming, because I swore blindly to them all
That I would never feel romance for you, they would never witness the fall.
And I plead that I belong to another, but it’s all just a story
So this wouldn’t happen-you’d get close and then kill me.
I’ve got a secret and it’s on the tip of my tongue
And it’s firing up my throat, and it’s burning the back of my lungs.
And I need to keep it, it’s mine and I’m telling, it’s wrong
And it’s been bawling in my brain now for much too long.
Because I never thought that I would ever fall in love with him
I swore it was a mistake, that I would regret it, he would sin.
He snuck up behind me and he took my heart from under my eyes
And then shattered it in pieces, and he just left me to die.
Don’t tell me you love me, next time you are high
After that, how could I ever breathe without you by my side?
Don’t tell me that I’m worth it, next time you see me and you like it
Don’t tell me you love me-next time you might mean it.
But I guess living with you for so long means I cannot live apart.
It’s not love, I will say, but I want you to know it’s a lie
Because I can’t walk past you without you making me cry.
And I opened up; I was vunerable and weak and yours
And it wasn’t the leaving that hurt me-it was simply the cause.
For you to degrade me like that was more than I could ever bear
And it’s not even a wound that we could possibly share.
Because you could have had me forever, I hope that you know
I would never have run away in bitterness, I would never have said no.
We could have been star-crossed, something might have appeared
To save you the trouble of reducing me to tears.
I underestimated my emotions for you and then I opened my eyes
And now I want it to be easy, I want it to work without the try.
I don’t want your excuses, your lies, and I defiantly don’t want the truth
Because that will settle the fact that I’ve lost hope in you.
I’ll never have you back-as a friend, enemy, worse or more
All I have is the throbbing, self-inflicted sore.
You carved scars deep in me; you broke something I never knew was there
And you broke it twice over when you said you don’t care.
You don’t regret a thing; you don’t mourn what we once knew
As far as you’re concerned, I never meant anything at all to you.
I would like to think it is a front-underneath you are sorry and wrong
Or maybe, to hurt me, you’re just playing along.
There are a thousand and one things that I would like to say to you
I would like to scream them, sob them; I would like you to listen and think them to be true.
And there’s a little aching part of me that wishes that you’d never existed
And I was immune; a mask never to be affected.
And I can’t stand the way you look at me now, with pity for the freak
Who isn’t quiet, small, smiling; who isn’t afraid, who isn’t meek.
The girl you turned away because she didn’t act enough like one
The girl who’s changed, the girl who’s gone.
He’s not sorry, for all the things he’s done, all the crimes he’d committed
And he is oblivious to all of the times that I’ve regretted.
And he is acting tough; he is marching tall, he only feels relief
Because he lied to my face when he said he could love a girl like me.
How many times can I turn my back and lie to myself?
Before I fall for you, you refuse to catch me, and I cry for help?
I am sitting with my heart right out, my blood across my cheeks and my passion in my hands
And I am wincing away from another expected reprimand.
I just couldn’t see it coming, because I swore blindly to them all
That I would never feel romance for you, they would never witness the fall.
And I plead that I belong to another, but it’s all just a story
So this wouldn’t happen-you’d get close and then kill me.
I’ve got a secret and it’s on the tip of my tongue
And it’s firing up my throat, and it’s burning the back of my lungs.
And I need to keep it, it’s mine and I’m telling, it’s wrong
And it’s been bawling in my brain now for much too long.
Because I never thought that I would ever fall in love with him
I swore it was a mistake, that I would regret it, he would sin.
He snuck up behind me and he took my heart from under my eyes
And then shattered it in pieces, and he just left me to die.
Don’t tell me you love me, next time you are high
After that, how could I ever breathe without you by my side?
Don’t tell me that I’m worth it, next time you see me and you like it
Don’t tell me you love me-next time you might mean it.