Lonely

I feel so lonely now
It is harsh when you feel lonely when you are on your own
But it is even harsher when you are in love and you still feel alone

What is the sense of falling in love and feeling lonely?
What is the sense of being in love and not emotionally satisfied?
What is the sense of giving so much when you are not given any attention?

I really don’t want to be with someone who can live with me
I want to be with someone who can “not” live without me
I don’t want to be with someone who can survive his day without my presence

I don’t want to be with someone who neglects me as if I really do not exist
Stay as you are and insist
Suppress your kindness
Conceal your tenderness
Get colder …. Freeze your emotions …
Freeze them till they turn to ice
Do not push yourself to be nice
Keep on building this fence between us
Build it higher and higher …

I was always trying to keep myself back from you
I was so afraid to surrender my heart to you
And now that I did … I wish I didn’t …
Cause it would have been safer with me

I wish I never got close to you
Cause all you are doing now is hurting me so deep
I am tired of thinking all night what went wrong with you
I am really tired … I can’t even sleep

It is bad when you love someone who doesn’t understand you
But it is even worse if you love someone who misunderstands you
If you only understand what I can give
If you only understand the passion I have inside
You won’t be wasting all this time not being happy together….