Hiding secrets; missing hell

hates everything she ever loved,
and would give it all just to fucking shoot the dove.

The colors rain, the blood poors, the dreams all shatter, and I'm on the floor.
i'm giving up, im running dry, all this did was make me cry.
Im tired of this pain, im tired of this bull,
god doesnt let it rain, so im stuck in an empty bowl.

I thought i was better. I thought i was good, but i guess no one cared,
i guess it was just a critter. A stupid one, one that bites and then runs.
The stupid thing took off before i could kill, the stupid thing took all of my skill.

I chew my tounge, i bite my lip, i hold it together, and refuse to let things slip.
Like i said once before, i guess im done, so shut the door.
The walls of troy, have been destroyed, entered my brain, and took my toys.

Opened my closet, took the skeletons.
When i ran to the bathroom with such slit wrists, i finally noticed that this would be it.
The music played, the blood ran crimson, the colors changed,
I thought i wouldn't miss him.
the floor felt like my bed. The wall felt like velvet.
He said he wouldn't give in.
The room turned blue, the tub turned green.
He said not to let him live.
The door swung open.
he said he'd be in hell.
my mother screamed and held me tight.
I guess i will be seeing him tonight.