Inevitability and Two Halves

I feel an overwhelming sense of inevitability
In past tense for things that have happened
And in the future for things that will come to be
Press play on the screen before I go to bed
Fall asleep dreaming dreams based on books I’ve never read
See people each day that I don’t want to see
Hold hands with a person that refers to he and I as we
Hear lies from my mind and comments on actions
Wondering when people really from their perceptions
Hug me tightly
You tell me you love me
And all I feel is suffocation
Call my phone
You hate being alone
And I’m in need of a vacation
Losing faith in everything I stand for
Struggling to keep my beliefs alive
Give me reassurance, but I only want more
Suck it up and take the dive
I have a way with words?
Your mind will change once you listen to this
I sing like the birds?
Maybe the black ones that you swiftly dismiss
Inevitability
Feel it towards events
And with worry
Press play on the screen before I leave today
Optimism, believe they’ll stay.